It’s late. I take a deep breath. In this quiet moment I let the tears flow. I prefer to cry alone. I’m authentic in this moment. The fear is real. The moment is surreal. I feel gratitude for the moments I have left. “One breath at a time” I say when it’s just us. A reminder to us both. I play music, … Continue reading The Quiet
I have started and erased a few rants this month. I have considered adding a new category to my site called “Uncensored and Unfiltered” Continue reading Uncensored and Unfiltered?
Te Amo Mami Continue reading Te Amo Mami
Everyone comes into my life for a reason. Continue reading Thank You For Entering
If you are fortunate enough to live where nature reminds you of the changing seasons, you will likely see the leaves on the trees transforming into a beautiful array of oranges, yellows, and reds right about now. I miss that now that I do not live in the Pacific Northwest. Don’t get me wrong, I love Southern California, and wouldn’t change that anytime soon. However, … Continue reading Seasons Are Changing
Here I am putting pen to paper to jot down a few words and say hello, let you know I am alive and well. Continue reading It is SHINY and New!
During the last shut down in California, the Pandemic became real for me. What I mean by this is I had seen it in the news, but had not know anyone personally who was touched by it. However in January, an Uncle whom I had a fondness of passed from COVID complications. Then, last week I had another Uncle pass, his death was of natural causes, nonetheless, it … Continue reading I Too Am Aging
What I believe to be true in my world is what becomes true in my day-to-day living. Continue reading Good Kind of Growth
I am blessed in my creative nature. Continue reading Childless, or Am I?
As I listen to one of my favorite bands’ latest albums, I realize how much I love the bass and drum combo of a song. Continue reading Changes
Do you ever find yourself asking yourself why you are friends with a person? Continue reading Why Did We Become Friends?
Did it sting? Did it burn? Was it an overwhelming pain? I cannot remember. Continue reading A Moment of Truth
A valuable piece of knowledge I obtained from my many years of therapy is that I have invisible threads that are tethered to my past hurts. A slight or hurt I experienced in the present is potentially tethered to an emotional hurt in my past. This can manifest in irrational or overreaction to things that are occurring at the moment. The skill part of this comes when one … Continue reading Betrayal Trauma
I love music. I love what it makes me feel. I love how I feel. I think it is a way for me to get lost, without having somewhere to go. I give control to the song, to the lyrics. I am at the mercy of the artist. I am at the mercy of their story. It is easier to live someone else’s life than my own. I have to be responsible for … Continue reading Random Fear
I have always said I am an addict, or more accurately I have an addictive personality. What does that really mean? Why do I insist on believing this untruth? I am nothing I do not want to be. Why do I live in the things I do not want to live in? I am the master of my world. I am the master of my universe. I am, I am, I am… … Continue reading Open, Empty, GO!
A friend and I once discussed “Drinking the Red Kool-Aid”. I was reflecting on how I do not just go along with things because someone says it is what should be done. I was commenting on how most people are told by someone they respect, a parent, a spiritual leader, or a political leader for example, and they agree and drink the proverbial Red Kool-Aid. Where I always … Continue reading Red Kool-Aid
I have reached a crossroads of sorts in my emotional life. Or more accurately I have changed paths at the latest crossroads. As of late I find myself being happy with who I am. It had been a while since I felt true happiness. What I mean, is that I believe there are two types of happiness. The superficial, or maybe it is not superficial, … Continue reading Creative Happiness
I woke up stuck for the third day in a row, or the fifth or is it the sixth? I have been stuck in writing, stuck in things of life, stuck in thought patterns, just STUCK. Reading is my mode of escapism I use to tolerate the “stuck days” but even that has been failing me because I have been so ADD. Not being able to … Continue reading Sixx, Is This Gonna Hurt?
Jack sings his song; his words resonate in me. He says my love is soft, kind, and blind. He says my love is wasted. He says someday I will see. I look back now, and see my disaster. He says I can choose to learn. I choose to realize my love was wasted on you. Your confession carved flesh and bone until it found my … Continue reading “Wasted” Love
I have done my best to avoid media coverage regarding Donald Trump’s comments about Mexican immigrants. As a Mexican born American, I knew that it would take .006 seconds for me to be fired up, or at minimum annoyed about his ignorance. I want to note that I did not say illegal immigrants, because Mr. Trump’s comment was “When Mexico sends its people…” I took … Continue reading Mr. Trump You Are a Buffoon!
I was typing in a chat window the other day, when I noticed that for every single chat entry from the other person, I had two or three entries, and this made me ponder why that might be. One reason is that sometimes people I am chatting with are using smart phones (the power of social media). However, for the most part it is because … Continue reading Type, Type, Type!
Shhh... my Soul is talking, listen. 