My life stories.
It’s late. I take a deep breath. In this quiet moment I let the tears flow. I prefer to cry alone. I’m authentic in this moment. The fear is real. The moment is surreal. I feel gratitude for the moments I have left. “One breath at a time” I say when it’s just us. A reminder to us both. I play music, … Continue reading The Quiet
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If you are fortunate enough to live where nature reminds you of the changing seasons, you will likely see the leaves on the trees transforming into a beautiful array of oranges, yellows, and reds right about now. I miss that now that I do not live in the Pacific Northwest. Don’t get me wrong, I love Southern California, and wouldn’t change that anytime soon. However, … Continue reading Seasons Are Changing
Did it sting? Did it burn? Was it an overwhelming pain? I cannot remember. Continue reading A Moment of Truth
A valuable piece of knowledge I obtained from my many years of therapy is that I have invisible threads that are tethered to my past hurts. A slight or hurt I experienced in the present is potentially tethered to an emotional hurt in my past. This can manifest in irrational or overreaction to things that are occurring at the moment. The skill part of this comes when one … Continue reading Betrayal Trauma
I wonder why we take the path of least resistance? I find I take said path all the time, in different areas of my life. Is it that we have a natural aversion to conflicts, challenges, or resistance? What is it about a challenge that makes one decide that a quicker solution, maybe a less effective one or a temporary one is more appealing than hunkering down and … Continue reading Path of Least Resistance
I have reached a crossroads of sorts in my emotional life. Or more accurately I have changed paths at the latest crossroads. As of late I find myself being happy with who I am. It had been a while since I felt true happiness. What I mean, is that I believe there are two types of happiness. The superficial, or maybe it is not superficial, … Continue reading Creative Happiness
In K-Pop when an artist releases new music, they are said to have a “comeback”. I have been absent here for a minute or 4 years (but who is counting), that makes this post my “comeback “. I am a fan of a handful of K-Pop artists and groups that I stumbled upon in my adventures in escapism. About 3 years ago, I was binge … Continue reading K-Pop In My Pocket
I woke up stuck for the third day in a row, or the fifth or is it the sixth? I have been stuck in writing, stuck in things of life, stuck in thought patterns, just STUCK. Reading is my mode of escapism I use to tolerate the “stuck days” but even that has been failing me because I have been so ADD. Not being able to … Continue reading Sixx, Is This Gonna Hurt?
I was typing in a chat window the other day, when I noticed that for every single chat entry from the other person, I had two or three entries, and this made me ponder why that might be. One reason is that sometimes people I am chatting with are using smart phones (the power of social media). However, for the most part it is because … Continue reading Type, Type, Type!
I unintentionally made an “affirmation scroll” today. It started as a treatment (prayer), but as I poured my thoughts and feelings onto the paper, it kept getting longer and longer. When my heart and soul agreed on a stopping point, I assessed the final product, and had two pages of tightly squeezed words. This time I elected to use graph paper instead of lined paper, … Continue reading “I Just Called to Say I Love You”
“I sat by the ocean, and drank a potion, baby to erase you…” The song started all well and good, until I remember why I had removed it from my playlist. My mind took a bullet train back to the moment I realized that I was not having a nightmare, rather I was awake and dismayed by the reality I called my life. How did … Continue reading “I Sat by the Ocean”
Shhh... my Soul is talking, listen. 