Shhh… my Soul is talking, listen.

Communicate clear intentions; be well defined about what you want. Most importantly, be willing and prepared to accept what needs to occur in order for you to have what you asked for.

Early this year I sent out a request to God (Uni) titled “Kickstart My Life” (Yes, it is a Crue reference!). What came next was a whole lot of nothing. There was no sudden epiphany. There was no parting of the skies. There was no clear vivid conversation with God in my dreams.  There was nothingness. I wondered if maybe the statements; that followed my ever so cool title; were too vague. I wondered if maybe I had been overly ambitious in what I asked for (we all know I am NEVER overly ambitious). Life moved forward, and I forgot about my message to Uni, because I had faith that it would arrive at the precise time, the exact place, and the spot-on… everything. Uni has a way of just making things happen in the correct way for the best and highest good of all those involved. I was not disappointed, and I was not scared that it might not manifest, because I know Uni always has my back.

Growing up in the Seventh-Day Adventist church, I was trained to have rock solid faith in Uni. I was told that because he was the all mighty and could never error or fail, he would give me what I asked for (if he deemed me worthy). I have long since left the Adventist church, and I have changed my beliefs about spiritualty, but I did not change or leave my rock solid faith in Uni. As I said before, Uni always has my back. Through the principles of Science of Mind, I now have a new understanding of Uni. I know that when I center myself and look within, I connect with my God-self (holy spirit), and I have a direct line to the power that is greater than I am.  My direct connection to Uni, allows me to have blind faith, doubt is not welcomed or possible.  When I am in that Divine space, I know that any message I send, I can let go, and it will manifest. I went to that Divine space, I sent my Kickstart my Life request, and I let it go.

I must note, that I do not always “let the message go”, that is where my faith falters. When I do not have faith I dwell on my request, I question if it will arrive soon, I am impatient, I keep asking Uni “WHEN is it going to manifest?!?” However, that was not the case this time. I said Uni “Kickstart My Life”, and I let the request make its meticulous impression upon The Law [of Cause and Effect] that was already in motion.  I said something like… “Uni, Kickstart my Life, remove all that is not for my best and highest good. Release all those negative things, thoughts, beliefs and behaviors that do not make me a better person. Let go of all the people and stuff that no longer serves a positive purpose in my life.” That is not verbatim but close enough that you get the idea of the intensity of my request.

Since then, I forgot about the details, and I forgot to expect a manifestation, until two months ago. Change had clearly been forming for a whole month, but I had not noticed because I was blinded by “life”. Then in July I found myself on a rollercoaster ride rushing through so many possibilities (some good, some crappy), so many all at once that it felt like chaos had been stirred into a big bowl of limbo. I have analyzed, assessed, re-assessed, evaluated and dissected my request to find out what I missed, what I forgot. The ride has not stopped; I am still taking in my special concoction of chaos/limbo one bite at a time.

As a human manifestation of the Divine, I am… human. I make mistakes, or more accurately create learning opportunities. I stand in judgment of others, and myself. I am demanding, I have unrealistic expectations; I live in fear of the stupidest things. I am insecure; I doubt my abilities and am my own harshest critic. I worry that I am not doing enough. I worry that I am not deserving of the blessed life I have. I think, “Everyone can and should do better every day!” No, that was not in a positive tone, I was totally making my judgie face as I typed it. As I said, I am… human. I have a long laundry list of reasons why I do, say or think those things, but I will leave that for another day. My point is that being human, I forget that Uni will give me exactly what I ask for, but not on my terms, or by my expectations. I forget that my reality or what I know is so slight, in comparison, to what Uni knows. My terms and expectations are so limiting, that Uni just chuckles at the thought of being restricted by my narrow mind. Uni will align things in a manner that my human mind has not considered; it will manifest my request in a manner I have yet to conceive.

All my investigating and exploring brought me to one conclusion. I forgot. I forgot to be mindful. I forgot to be open to change. I forgot to prepare for, the all-embracing power of Uni. Well let me tell you Ladies and Gents, Uni is not the forgetful type. It remembers the request, the detail or lack of detail and it delivers as requested. What did I forget? I forgot to include crucial words such as kindly, patiently, lovingly, and compassionately, all those words and more should have been part of my request. So today, I have sent a revised request to Uni. I call this one “Kickstart my Life 2.0”. This time I was mindful, I was clear and I am now willing to accept the needed changes in my life. I am open to courage, patience, forgiveness, understanding and all the other wonderful attributes that describe what Uni means to me, and I welcome the manifestation that Uni is in the process of delivering.

Thank you for giving me a moment of your time as you read this, for that YOU ROCK!

~Lala

p.s. I know all those who know the song can’t get it out of their head now! HA my plan worked!  🙂