I know the term low grade fever is used when describing someone having a fever that is not dangerous. I feel like these last few months I have had a low-grade depression, because I am functional, I go to work, I make an effort to be sociable for the most part. But the solitude that I normally cherish and value and find satisfaction is not fulfilling. I find that the things that I love are starting to lose their shine.

I should probably note that I’ve been under a lot of emotional stress because I am actively pushing myself to work through all the early childhood traumas that I’ve been keeping under lock and key. If you read one of my posts from a few years back I refer to it as a closet or a Pandora’s box or something like that, I can’t even remember now, I’ve unlocked it and it is deeply emotionally distressing at times. I do feel better once I process one thing and then the next but that low-grade depression just kinda hangs like a dark gray thing.

That’s all that’s all I wanted to say today.